urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:beautifulpuddle FuckMeFast KillMeSlow FuckMeFast KillMeSlow 2006-05-10T23:54:18Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:beautifulpuddle:1603 2006-05-10T23:54:18Z 2006-05-10T23:54:18Z i'm so happy<br />who would have thought that a picture he drew that says "i'm so happy we're together" could keep me smiling all day :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:beautifulpuddle:1028 2006-05-07T05:47:36Z 2006-05-07T05:47:36Z i miss the way he says my name<br />with a big ol smile on his face<br /><br />his smile gives me goosebumps.<br /><br />ill be put away for 3 years if i see him/talk to him/write him/associate with him in ANY way<br /><br />i'm willing to risk it just to see that smile :) urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:beautifulpuddle:909 2006-05-01T17:41:44Z 2006-05-01T17:41:44Z move to canada and start clean?<br />or daygo where who knows what will happen?<br />either way, i'm going to ask him to come with me.<br />i think i'm gonna go with my heart on this one./<br />this might mean goodbye urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:beautifulpuddle:708 2006-04-24T00:27:25Z 2006-04-24T00:27:25Z ecstatic leaving forever never coming back x-box overdrawn stealth jewelry road-trip bloody-knuckle bunnies side-tracked lost freeway daygo little-italy lunch best-western phone-book el-cajon puff-n-stuff aztec incense twisty-pipes morgan's willy nicole 8-ball pawning happy free tweakers-apartment g-rides ouiji tip-jars streets wind fight leave alone alone alone cold running waiting fighting starving running running running hiding crying searching fearing yelling raping tweaking cops alone scared fearing-death wanting-death running dirty screaming begging screaming running crying.<br /><br />i died a little that week.<br /><br />but i've also never been so alive. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:beautifulpuddle:485 2006-04-23T02:42:42Z 2006-04-23T02:42:42Z i love him. <br />i miss him. <br />i miss it. <br />the lifestyle.<br />it was easier then.<br />i knew my place.